Hello friends. It's been a while EH?! I originally wanted this post to be a video update, but I'm having some technical problems with my computer. I just thought that I would give you guys a little update about what's going on in my life right now. I've been going through A LOT of personal things that have just made me be pretty down on myself. I finally feel like things are starting to turn around though and I feel a lot better. 2012 has been a pretty rough year for me, and 2013 isn't off to the best start either. Hopefully it will end better...
Anyway... as for the update: Back in December I celebrated my 22nd birthday with my boyfriend and friends in LA. Shortly after I came back to NJ for a longgggg visit. I got to be here for Ugly Christmas Sweater parties, Christmas time, my boyfriend Sean even came for a visit. It was a great time. What was really fun is that I got to go to West Virginia to spend some time with my boyfriend and his friends and family for about a week for New Years Eve. It was a really cool experience. I had never been to West Virginia for a visit. I loved his hometown ( Wheeling ) . It really is so beautiful. ( NOTHING like that show Buckwild on MTV haha --not that that is bad either.. they look like they have themselves a good time. ) It was sad when I had to leave my boyfriend and go back to NJ, and he had to return to LA. Long distance relationships are soooooo hard. I have a whole seperate blog post coming up about that topic.
It's been nice being able to visit with my family here. My brother Nicholas has been progressing sooooo much. He is such a smart little boy. I love him so much. I'm also BEYOND proud of my mom for all that she does. She balances so many things in one day. She is seriously a super hero. I also have a majority of my friends here in NJ, I love that they're able to help me out with emotional support when it comes to missing my boyfriend and the stresses of every day life. I have an amazing safety net here, except I don't want a safety net right
“When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?”
As scary as it is, I need to be on my own right now. I need LA.
I've also been doing A LOTTTTT of thinking about the future. Long term goals, etc... and I recently decided that I want to save money to be able to attend cosmetology school as well as Make Up Designory to become a make up artist. Like mother like daughter I guess right?
I've also been working out A LOT lately. Eating as healthy as I can. I've been doing a TON of yoga. It has also helped me a lot as far as helping me get my thoughts in order.
On the 9th, my best friend Jaclyn and I are going to be going to LA together. She's going to stay for a week and then return to NJ. I HOWEVER am going to be moving in with some friends of mine in Venice until I'm able to get my own place out there again. I'm excited. I've been trying hard to get back to LA. I still work with Buzznet, but I also got a very nice office job with one of my best friends out there. I needed to be back. I still need to figure out when I'll be able to go to Texas and visit my family there. Did I mention that being a child of divorce is difficult too? It is. Blog post on that topic coming up soon too. I've had so many thoughts in my head that I've actually started writing a journal to myself. I feel like Carrie Bradshaw. I decided that maybe I'll start sharing some of them with you. It's been very theraputic and helpful for me to write things out.
Anyway, I have a lot of awesome blogs that are going to be going up this month as well as some AMAZING giveaways with brands such as Love + Leather, LNA, Valou 3 Cap Rings and a signed copy of my Aunt Caroline's brand new book. So make sure you keep checking my Buzznet page & Follow me on Twitter/Instagram ( @ashleeholmes ) !
** ALSO - I'm dying to hear from you all about the kind of blogs you would like to start seeing from me! Leave comments and let me know! xx